i'm smart i think

hehehhehhe

not going to use any proper names so that

NO ONE WILL EVER FIND THIS BLOG

HAHAHA

my parents

are bad

when i was little i had lots of brothers and sisters to help me, then they went to college now i'm 1.....7 and very sad and fucked

i don't think it's wrong to steal or have sex outside of marriage or say 'fuck'

i will never be able to connect to another human, probably

i mean, probably i will never be able to interact with another human in a meaningful honest way

i just cant or something

but this seems okay if i was really smart and productive and clean

instead i have acne and eat a lot and waste so so much time time

anyway i like writing and then publishing it to the internet but i deleted my old blog in order to stay alive, jk, just bc my mom already found it but it doesnt really matter bc she already told my dad, but i dont want it there now, all my siblings read it or something, i feel fucked